Rain delay

I'm behind. That is what I think on almost a daily basis. I am late for work, late getting home; there is not enough time to do all the things I want. Or maybe I just don't manage the time I have well.

I am finally on my last two years of school or three if you count the 5th year program I will be following. I am behind here too. I should have finished school by now and be well entrenched in my profession of choice. Life gets in the way sometimes, and our own not so smart choices.

Am I behind in life? I am surrounded by women my age with multiple marriages, kids, etc. I don't have any of those past or present. I try to search myself and see if this bothers me but it really doesn’t. I don't feel a hankering for children yet. I would like to be with someone but I am not lonely. Like most things I guess when I really want it I will get it.

So why so introspective today? Not sure. I am not quite at an impasse but not completely settled in my current world either. I spoke with a friend today who is dealing with something that happened six months ago. She made me thankful for the people that I have in my life. She has also made me think of the lives we live and how we live them. As I said before I always feel late, rushed, and in a hurry to get to my next destination. Some of us live our lives rushing towards the hereafter. We never appreciate what we have today. We are always looking for something bigger and better.

I can’t be happy living my life rushing for something better. I want to learn to appreciate my surroundings. Appreciate the life I am in and who and what I have surrounded myself with. The future is always there. It will wait if not for me then for those I love. I hope to help them appreciate their daily lives as I learn to appreciate my own. To everyday find something that is joyful, thoughtful, peaceful, or fulfilling that gives a meaning for the day. To have a daily rain delay that makes me stop the world in its tracks and appreciate the here and now.